Well, mine seems to be.
When I was younger, I always saw myself as a straight male (even though I never thought of myself as a male, I just thought it was what i had to be). As I got older, and exposed to more different types of people outside of the tiny little town I grew up in, in the Midwest. I kissed another guy, and did not enjoy it. I’m not sure why, but it did nothing for me. Still later, after I begun my transition I begun to see men in a different light. Whether it was the hormones, or something else… like settling in to life as a female, I saw men WAY different. Even started dating men, and having sex with them (obviously after my wife and I split). Enjoying being with men, and being the “submissive” side of an intimate relationship.
All of that leads to the point of this entry. I feel my attraction to men waning once again. I feel I continue to be bisexual (possibly pan-sexual) but my attraction is leaning WAY more toward women. My desire to be with a woman in a romantic relationship is becoming overwhelming. I actually miss the energy of being with a woman in a romantic way. It’s very hard to describe exactly what I mean, but I have this desire for that energy and vibe again.
Now for the problem. As far as I can tell, most genetic females aren’t interested in being with a pre-op trans woman. The only woman I see with trans women were with them before transition and there is a long and deep connection. That may sound like I am just throwing a whole group of people in one bucket, and hey, maybe women just don’t find ME attractive. That’s very well possible.
I was discussing this a little with my housemate today, and how most guys who approach me are more fetishists and want to “see what it’s like” or teach them how to date a trans girl. How? wtf!? Treat her like any other girl, and you’re done. I also have another interesting observation about guys who are interested in me. They are typically HALF my age. Most recently a 22 year old contacted me via a TG dating site who wanted me to teach him. I told him he was too young and I am too tired to “teach” anyone anything.
As stated in another entry, I’ve always been attracted to women. Maybe men was a passing fancy, or just a side thought. I honestly don’t know. It’s all overwhelming, and a little confusing.
So, what this is ultimately about? Well, the changes my sexuality has gone through, and it’s entirely possible, it could change yet again.