Keep in mind, in my intro, I promised I would be sharing kinks and perversions… and this blog is adults only.
So I have a LONG history with porn, having been exposed to it when I was quite young by my older brother. My young impressionable mind was twisted and warped forever. Later, I consumed a lot of porn, strangely, it was almost exclusively girl/girl or lesbian porn. Still my personal favorite. There was even a time I considered getting into porn and was even approached to do so. Did I mention I am trans, so it would be kinky porn? I was very close to actually flying to Texas to shoot a handful of scenes, but I ultimately turned down the offer. I do still get offers from time to time, but I don’t believe it’s in the cards. On the other hand, I have considered trying to look into writing (I know I know), producing and or directing some day.
The other side of this coin is my thoughts on being in the industry in some way. An advocate, or agent possibly. It’s curious, I appreciate what the men and women do, and know it can’t always be easy, and I would like to be an advocate for making it safe and clean. I have no idea HOW I would do that, but I think, from what I know, that it is rare unless you are a top star. I actually wrote a script/story for a porn video starring three of my favorite girls; Dani Daniels, Darcie Dolce, and Celeste Star.
Then there’s my writing. I have started a page on Literotica, and published one 4 part trans erotic love story, and a one part lesbian incest story. I know what your thinking, incest is illegal. But fiction can’t be…, right? Ironically, There are a combined 7,000 reads with all four part of my trans story, and nearly 8,600 reads for the incest story. Apparently, that’s a WAY bigger fetish. People have really enjoyed both works for apparently different reasons.
Here is one sweet comment I got with part one;
“thank you so much for submitting this story, I can’t wait to read more after reading this lovely beginning I am also trans, i am only at the start my transition .this story means a lot to me .this has the beginnings to be an amazing story. I wish you much love xoxo.”
Here is one from part 4;
“I’ve been looking forward to each installment. And, seriously, you’re just going to throw Nikki in there and consider letting it end with no resolution on THAT? That’s the literary equivalent of blue balls! Haha! Yes, by all means, take a break, but please do come back to it.”
It’s very inspiring to have people enjoy my writing, and makes me want to get my novel out there.
On the flip side, here are a couple comments from my incest story;
“I really liked this. Feels like a sweet start for a wonderful story.
The story had a nice flow to it overall. There was a hint of their personalities, good for such a short piece. The interaction between the sisters was skillfully executed and beautifully varied, I really got the feeling it’s two people who have known each other for a long time but are also in love and really care for each other. For instance, I loved that little “What’s wrong with me?” “Not a thing.” (while casually playing with her phone). Rather than big theatrical emotions, these are the gems that make me smile.
Thank you for writing this story, I enjoyed it.”
and:
“It’s been a very long time since I read a lesbian incest story so captivating and entertaining and now I’m sitting here with real expectations for more, there is a whole week left of Daphne’s break so a lot of possibilities to explore and expand their horizons and feelings. I fully agree with JessicaS about your style, it’s fresh and liberating without trying too hard at that – congrats!
Gave you 5*, both for the execution of this and out of hope for future installments. Thanks for making my day!”
I also got a few direct emails from users praising my work. I have definitely been inspired to start part two of my incest story, and eventually get back to my trans story.
Ironically, porn doesn’t “do it” for me all that much anymore. I have become completely numb to much of it, and it bores me.
Next time, I will discuss the other side of my porn addiction and why it was more painful than a turn on.
thanks for reading,
Shaman